i cry out, but the water fills my mouth, and my [compulsive] ways, they do nothing to help these waves.

Watch the oceans as they fall,
They fall on me so well

Light grows faint as i sink through the sea
Fishing boats they pass by
But no one throws a line for me
i cry out, but the water fills my mouth
And my adulteress ways, they do nothing to help these waves

-carter hulsey, mariana.


that's how i feel right now.
i feel so consumed, and like i'm drowning.
and that anyone and everyone who could help is either too far in distance or in their heart.

i want someone to hold me and i wanna cry like a baby and i want them to just lay there and hold me and tell me everything's going to be okay.

i'm sick of being the strong one, i wanna be the fragile one for once.